Monday, July 20, 2009

Manic Monday Indeed

I can do this. I can get through this. Please, someone tell me I can get through this!

Dad called me this morning & informed me that he will be arriving this Thursday to load the rental truck and move us to Michigan. Yes, this Thursday, not a week from Thursday as he had originally said. OMG! I still have so much to do! I have so little packed. I still have a million loose ends to tie up! I have major appliances that I have to get rid of. After an hour or so of having a near meltdown & thinking WTF?? I managed to get myself together & continue on to the appointment with the divorce attorney.

The good news is that the attorney can have the papers ready to sign before I leave town on Friday. The not so good news is the fee. Ouch! But, since I don't have time to consult with anyone else, I guess I have to suck it up. The really crap news is that I have to convince A to go in on Friday & sign the papers. If he doesn't go in on Friday and sign, everything gets infinitely more complicated and expensive. We will have to go through parenting classes and mediation. Then if the mediation doesn't work, we have to go to court with the lawyers. Time & money that I don't have. UGH But I am still hoping that he will agree to go in on Friday and sign.

I just spent two hours on the phone with him trying to get it through his head that if we don't do it now, it will be a lot more complicated and expensive. He is insisting that he has to see if his lawyer will be able to go in on Friday with him to sign the papers. Uh. Ok. So how does a man who doesn't even keep auto insurance coverage or file his taxes suddenly come up with a lawyer and the money to pay one? I don't know whether to call the lawyer and ask her to go ahead and draw up the papers or not. I do not want to throw out that kind of money if A is just going to jerk me around.

So the first hour was spent trying to explain to him why it would be easier to just go ahead and get it done the easy way. The next hour was spent listening to him whine about how tough his life is (oh cry me a river!) and how much he misses me. He has changed and sees the error of his ways, blah blah blah!!! I just sat there and let him run his mouth & interjected the occasional "mmm yeah", "whatever," as I looked at bridal gowns online. Is that a little wicked?

Speaking of bridal gowns, hoping to pick my spirits up a little, I decided to go into a bridal shop and take a look at some of the gowns. The first one I tired one was OMG!!! Mom, Abbie & Alex all loved it too. I felt gorgeous in it. Mom didn't think I even needed to try any more on. I was in love, but I thought I should try more on. I mean who knows, it could have been a case of just falling in love with the first bridal gown I've ever worn. So, I tried three or four more on, but none of them could even come close to the first one. I put the first one back on & yeah, it is THE dress. I love it. It was the simplest and least expensive one that I tried on, but it looked so good and made me feel great. I will have that gown. :) When I get settled in Michigan, I will find it at another bridal shop & it will be mine.

I miss the kids immensely. Since I only have basically two days to clean and pack the entire house, my sister is keeping the kids for me. Alex is great at unpacking the boxes faster than I can pack them. LOL So, Sis is keeping them for a couple of days so I can get everything sorted out. I miss them so much though! I miss the noise & their sweet voices and hugs & kisses. Man! I wonder if I can possibly get the whole house packed in one day so I can go get them a day earlier. :)

Today has definitely been a roller coaster ride. Thankfully, I think that once I get past Friday, I will be able to breathe a little. Whatever happens with the divorce papers, after Friday, it will be out of my hands for a little while and maybe I will be able to take a quick breath before tackling the next dragon - getting us settled in with school, work & daycare. *sigh* I'm trying not to think about the whole legions of dragons waiting in line. When does this test end? I'm tired already.

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